URGH- need more time to myself-really

got thru week one of working three weeks straight. Sigh, I'm really tired of being a manager sort. I really would like to find another type of work, but i wouldnt want to try and find it in this economy. so here i stay. The cat is really being needy, since a few of those days were 10 and 11 hour days. while he insisted on crawling into my lap, i've noticed he's gone from being a tiny stray who would tug at my skirt as i walked down the street to a decent sized housecat. little monster. i managed to catch some more sleep so hopefully i'll be able to draw another page of DAT.

playing with vue

It's a cold dreary sunday- just staying inside and being lazy which means playing on the computer. Discovered that i had bought vue 5 long time ago( it was a package deal with poser 6- (what i really wanted and it was cheaper in the package-go figure!)) so i put it on computer. it's fun with outside views, i think. lots of fun actually just to play and make scenes i might use one day- like this one.

an odd cartoon

well, i did secret santa at drunk duck this year! I got a nice piece of fan art that I'll post at The House of Other Worlds. Meanwhile I drew for someone their request of a wii falling in love with a ps3. as most of you know i'm not a gamer, so i stretched things- here' the cartoon.

New Medicine

Well, i went to the doctor about my coughing as it was starting to get really bad and i was having chest pain. And it looks like its reflux. I'm taking heavy dosage zantac. And wow that mean pain i had underneath my left ribcage is gone. Unfortunately, I have to wait for 3 hours after dinner before i can lie down at night. Which is an annoyance cause my excuse for not doing any work is i'm tired, let me lie down and read a book. And since I'm not a tv watcher, i've just been sitting at my desk, surfing a bit and starting to draw again(that's good). And another thing too is I'm finding that I have to eat really light at night also. So it's turning into cereal and toast. Also No Soda, No Caffeine and NO CHOCOLATE. Well, there will be chocolate- just not late at night and if we're going to suffer, it better be the good stuff, not the crappy junk we've been stuffing our face with daily. Same with the coffee and the tea. Though, that's already the case with coffee and tea.
Also, I'm off Zrytec and on Singulair, which seems to work. Very little coughing. Well, I still cough a bit around roxanne-but she's a lifetime smoker-it's in her pores. But It's only been 3 days- and its working pretty good. So I'm happy. It may give me headaches, but my sinuses are very congested(but producing less gunk) right now. We're off of the decongestants too(so the congestion could be the boomerang effect), to see how much the singulair can do- it's supposed to work on both asthma and allergies. It has one very spooky side effect- apparently some people get very depressed and suicidal. Looking at what people were writing- it seems to hit mostly children and young adults. Well, I'm not in that class anymore. But, Still I'll have to watch out for that- if it's gonna happen it'll show up in 3-14 days, and i have a follow-up visit next month with the doc. Ah, but right now, it's nice to breathe and not have any chest pains.

Stupid Silly Dream

I dreamed I was caught up on a cliff which was next to a tree. I couldnt get down. All of sudden i had a flashback of a problem in my life before that i had got around it. I said to myself, when life is difficult, it's time to do things differently. So I hopped into the tree and climbed down. I dont know about you, but i hate it when my subconscious preaches to me. hmph! But it is a valid point

wheezing

Well, I overdid it. I ploughed thru cleaning my bedroom- did much needed rearranging. Stirred up dust. The closet is stuffed to its gills with things i need to go thru. My gills are clogged with dust. I must have used my inhaler more today than i have in a week. Next up is the kitchen and bathroom. Then the pile in the living room of things to go thru,the stash in the closet, etc. Basically I'm breaking things down in smaller piles to deal with. I've had 4 years of death and trauma to distract me from the housecleaning. Let's see - father dies on election day 2004, brothers starts major freakout, brothers say paramedics killed him. -he had an aneurysm- he was to sick for the docs to operate- it burst- he was dead before he hit the floor. mother contracts lung cancer, brothers freakout and dont want us helping mom, brothers announce mother cured of cancer, mother has stroke, mother is not cured of cancer and needs to go to hospice. brothers freakout and says all doctors are quacks and mother is not dying. get mother into nursing home and with a dnr order. brothers freakout and threaten arrest for trespassing because i am visiting my mother in nursing home. i freakout inside because i'm keeping this cheerful face on so i can give my mother a peaceful death. I let my brothers focus on me so i only visit once a week with a brother attendee, so my sister can visit freely. mother dies peacefully. brothers freakout and say nursing home killed her. Brother follows me around my mothers house with a gun as we get things together for her funeral(they locked us out- as they lived with her because they couldnt afford to live on their own at 30+) The county falls apart and so does their probate system, along with their slow-paced country lawyers- 2.5 years and counting, waiting for the estate to be settled. Meanwhile, nephew contracts cancer, caught early-prognosis is very good- just that chemo takes forever and he keeps getting sick from it. eventually, he's given all clean. One brother settles down and with a wife too. Missy Cat dies of cancer. I break down at vet. It's the c word. Luckily, i felt bad about this cute little stray around christmas time and let her into the house so i dont have a empty but cluttered, messy apt to go home to. New election time, and everybody gets on the edge. Everyone is mean to each other. And afterwards, it's a relief. I guess that's what the last 9 months have been - very stressful, but things get turned around. I feel like, I can throw double sixes now instead of snake eyes. And if not, well, with a bit(okay -lots)of hard work, i can muddle thru the situation pretty good. So, I'm getting there and hopefully I'll be able to look at the new year with a clean house. Actually, that's the schedule. Unless work screws me up. And if it does, I'll get thru it.

lazy sunday for me and the cat -- dont ask me what this is. I'm just playing around with photos and making them into manga style backgrounds.